Too good?

Listening to Regina Spektor, sitting cross-legged on my bed. I am a hundred ideas and motivated. I realize I have felt very bad for a very long time. I am on antidepressants, and have been for about a week. Placebo or not, things are changing.

I am preparing myself for the less than glamourous full package deal:

-general side effects

-continued depression

-possible "zombieness"

-possibility of fucking it all up again

-becoming a cultural statistic

-becoming a "victim" of the "pharmaceutical blah blah blah"

-addiction to something new

-withdrawl symptoms when stopping